Amy Lawless
Laugh and Hang
There were these food carts
On campus called Grease Trucks
You could get a gyro with french fries inside
Or even chicken cutlet hoagie
Topped with french fries and mozzarella sticks
These are called “Fat Sandwiches”
They don't exist anymore but
I feel them
You can still get a Fat Sandwich at that place on the corner,
but not really
I left the building with tears drying on my cheeks
This is coldness on skin
& I passed the building development that sprang up
After the Grease Trucks were put out of business
And felt you in my lungs on each inhale
So clichéd
I caught myself back with each exhale
Thought I'd write a big poem for you
But all I could write was:
permanent deadeye
Amy Lawless is the author of two books of poems including My Dead (Octopus Books). Her third poetry collection Broadax is forthcoming from Octopus Books this year. She is also co-author of I Cry: The Desire to Be Rejected, a collaborative, hybrid book (Pioneer Works Press, Groundworks Series) with Chris Cheney. Her poems have recently appeared in jubilat, The Volta, and Washington Square Review. Her poems have been anthologized in Best American Poetry 2013 and the Academy of American Poets' Poem-a-Day: 365 Poems for Every Occasion. She received a poetry fellowship from the New York Foundation for the Arts in 2011. She keeps an online presence at http://amylawless.blogspot.com.
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